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WaterBlue dot
Drop into the brown
Carcass
Bring life through
A frozen tear
into the veins
of souls
Yet still borrowed
the energy from
the seeping earth
you supple

Violet reflection
Dripping wet paint
from the ideas of life
in a world beyond
Black boxes in the earth
Crying tears
That crackle between
cracks in the pavement
and down my cheeks

Will I drown
In all that you are
In the consuming
water
In your face
which brings the spring
into my step
In the joy of life
in which you also
so unwittingly
drench me in
from the heavens above?

For All of the HeartsFor all the hearts who have been broken
That have had to buy rounds of duct tape to mend
Tears that have been wrought on souls that do not hear
That have had to wear masks of smiles and hearts to hide
And especially for those whose hearts still sing

Today its going to rain, rain like the stars have died
The heavens are going to cry with the passion of
Well, one of us; who've lived multiple lives
and have died every single day trying and struggling
But living and sighing through each painful drop of blood

Tomorrow, though, I'm going to smile; Through the grimace
And the dirt and the blood and the pain that stains black
Upon my chee

darknessBuried in the shadows
Drowning in the dark
Shrouded in silence
No light not one spark
Surrounded in shadows
Buried in the past
Trying to let go
But things are moving to fast
Emptiness fills my heart
Blackness fills the space
Anger fills my eyes
And know where to store this rage
Bright colors start to fly
Red, blue, green, move,
my emotions go ari
Finally I let go
And soon enough I'm back to normal,
everything under control
No light in my eyes
No color in my face
I'm covered in blackness
Darkness again fills this space

EasyIt's really easy.

To sit back. To dream. To live in your fantasy. Watching as reality and the disjointed imagination eats you alive and spits you out.

That's really easy.

It's hard though.

To open your mouth. Dare to be wrong. Dare to be hurt. To live your fantasy. To convert your dreams to reality. And eat the monsters trying to shit you out.

It's hard.

To dare to be right.

It's easy to be scared. To cry yourself witless. To scream myself painless.

It's hard to kill fear. To slay my monsters I create. To fight in the pain.

It's hard for me too.

But I'd rather be reckless and get hurt, than live my whole life thinking about what I c

I'm So TiredEach bone moans
with the echoes of rusted
harps - laid out of use
out of want

My skin hangs down
Like the drapes
on a broken ghost
of a dusty skeleton

Eyes inscribed
with lenses of black
and ink scribbles
drawn all over

My innards drip over
the musty cage and desperate
fingers - as my heart
finally dies

Shadow DanceShadows dance along my wall
The darkness smiles as the dance progresses
Like Aurora Borealis, the lights skim the ceiling
At first a solemn waltz, now a fast spin
The walls a gravely colour of gray
Which swallows the shadows in its corners' midst
A strange but intrancing scene
I am grateful such a sight to behold
In silence, I hold my breath
Anticipation clawing into me
The shadows jump, chasing each other in circles
A second races past for its moment to shine
In a heartbeat
My candle
Goes
Out

Trying To Kill Off SymbolismIs it sickness or just hope that keeps you alive in my heart and in my head
Hey, we fell in love, and you cut me off
Life isn't rehab and this isn't an addiction
I'm not something you can cure
You're not something I can mend

And the truth that should set me free is that you stayed the same in every way but me
But it just hurts to know that in your eyes I mean nothing
And this time it's your fault
A little bit of mine
So call me home
Because I dont feel
Alright and this house isn't home
This family isn't mine
And my friends all still smile
Well, almost.

Yell at me for everything I did
All the things I didn't
I know- I hope I

The Mysterious DayPlease know I'm sorry
I know that you're hurting,
Please let this go,
Please know I'm falling,
Down into the lowest low
The one thing that you've always known
But never had the heart to show.

My eyes are drowning
And my heart is aching,
So please know that I'm aware
I can't see this ending,
I can't understand a thing
My heart is weakening,
It's coming a part too fast
And I can't stand the fact
That it's not going to last.

These hearts die beneath the sky
While these eyes drown under the tears,
Our minds cry, gazing through the window
And our sight blurs what we should know,
So hold on and sit tight
We have to survive this dreary night,
Agai

InsanityIt is a cold cruel world,
a cold cruel heartless life,
and all I want to do is sink back into the night,
I am not excepted here,
amongst the men with countless fears,
I am not wanted here,
they have made that oh so clear,
I don't want to live a life,
where all of life is but a fright,
I can not live a life,
cowering from the light,
I sit in the shadows of my pain,
to watch the days just slip away,
shun from the world of all humane,
my heart grows colder as I go insane,

The NeedHer fingers were on her brow
Her eyes were sharp arrows
Her smile mangled
Her throat choking upon itself

She held herself together
By the bare thread left
Willing her feet to stop shaking
Her eyes to dam the tears

Everything was swirling
Her skin cold under the umbrella
Fogging rain obscuring vision
Death-numbing weakness in her knees

You were so close to her
Just a finger touch a way
As the glass shattered beneath her
Yet, where were you?

On the day the Ring Spider
bit into her bones, poisoning
The day she vomited tears
As she mumbled meaninglessly

Wishing your warmth over the rain
For your touch would have substained

The parasite calls out my nameThe parasite calls out my name,
Calling to tempt me into darkness.
Going though this world with an ally,
But is she truly a friend or foe.

The parasitic invasion is spreading,
I must continue battling to free my body.
The parasite wont leave me alone,
It will tempt me in this deep hatred.

Falling victim to this parasite,
Feeling my utter resolve falter.
The parasite calls out my name,
The sentient virus is getting stronger....

Tell Me, How Should I Feel?You were to be the grander stone,
But withheld feet of yellowed clay.
In deepest trust I carved my heart,
To sew upon your worried chest.

You spoke of secrets to shadowed ears,
To most, minus my own.
You queried and pondered the path to take,
And shifted from my gentle touch.

In swift seconds stolen by the dawn's stale grin,
You hastened to rust the chain,
To break the link and snip the string,
And, in mist, cowardly claimed your lies.

Leaving me stranded in this forgotten sanctuary,
Stained glass tainting my furied view,
Remembering all the times you lied and claimed, "I love you."

Like fire, I will rise and burn this temple,

Expression DilemmaSo Many
Boiling emotions overbubbling
inside the cauldron of a skin tight
boned structure struggling to fly out of me
steaming

So Many
Words and notions I wish
to breeze free out of me and embrace
you in a warm hug like a cup of hot chocolate
on an ice day

So Many
Thoughts (what's a thought really?)
ideas - a plethora as many as ants crawling
beneath my skin itching to walk out from my mouth
marching

So Many
So Many
So Many
And in that incredible moment in which the world
just stops for a moment to let me catch up with myself
so I can try to express myself to you
All I can say is

"jwefjkdslvci"

SleepI saw a picture online the other day,
It was written with the phrase,
"I want to sleep with you, as in sleep, not sex."

The kind of sleep where your arms are around me,
And your breath thrilling my skin.
I truly understand that,

Because after a night of stressful actions,
Tiring redundancy,
And weakened nerves,
I crave nothing more than your touch,

That stirring feeling that you create in my chest,
That smile when you think something is "cute".
It's true though,
I do wish I could sleep with you,

In a legitimate bed,
With your arm around me,
And your voice humming the song I don't know the words to,

But the tune still makes

Scars of Trust, BetrayedDirty secrets,
Filthy secrets,
Grimy, twisted, dusty secrets.
I have a few and won't whisper a word.
Unless of course you--

Ha, no, I won't tell.
Because what would happen if someone found my secrets…
And held them to my throat?
I can't have them knowing what I think of right before sleep,
Or what I cry for when the shower's tears slide down my back,

I can't have anyone knowing what I truly think…because it can be used against me in the end…
In the end, my trust would be my undoing…
I trust you, don't I?
Would you want to know these smoky words,
The ones I don't dare release from my lips?

But I can't tell y

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by ~Kailani-e, Sep 24, 2012, 8:41:40 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Sometimes
I can't say it out loud
My voice won't hail the words
Tipping out of my heart
My fingers can only
tap to the rhythms
I wish to say

Sometimes
I wish someone would be
so rude and so daring
as to pry into my heart
and dare to tell me I'm beautiful
when everyone knows
I'm not

Sometimes
I wish I could fade away
like ink off a page
and let my heart stop
feeling the pain and the hurt
and the love
and just have some space
to rest

Because Sometimes
I can't take it anymore
I can't bottle it up much longer
My fingers can only spell
for so long before the words
fall from my eyes
and I finally
Fade

Sometimesby ~Kailani-e

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

©2012-2013 ~Kailani-e

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~swootness13 Sep 25, 2012

So completely true...

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~Kailani-e Sep 25, 2012 Student Traditional Artist

Yeah... Its just so tiring sometimes... Thank you for the comment!

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~swootness13 Sep 26, 2012

You're welcome!!

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~topazcat511 Sep 25, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

too true...too true...

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~Kailani-e Sep 25, 2012 Student Traditional Artist

Sadly .. It is -__-

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!Ivylis Sep 25, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I can somewhat relate to this

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